Behind

May 19, is one day of the year I do not want to remember. The day I lost my biggest support system and somebody who could bring some amount of change in my life. I didn't know the death of an influencer could create much impact on your life. Though we didn't have a blood relation to talk about, we definitely had many things in common. 

After this incident, I spend most of my years, like in prison. Didn't have much of an idea where to start off or how to go about it. My life proved to be a perfect example of a woman with lower self esteem. Lost touch with the fewer friends I had. To sum it all, I had my life all by myself. But, don't we all have that inbuilt trait to move on because you just don't want to end yourself that quickly or maybe that's what you were at least not taught at home. Well, I don't know; I decided to find my space to fit into this planet. Haven't we heard about the fittest's survival; I was involved in the rat race too.

While this was on, I managed to give a try on securing my mental health seems like that was the only way I could survive in this paradox. My professional help suggested that I meet someone so I don't overthink and find myself engaging to start a new chapter of my life. Without further due with the assistance of online dating apps I was on the lookout to find the man of my dreams, okay...yeah, when I had them back in time. Least interested or bothered I met random people each week and see to myself it really doesn't work the way I thought it would. Failing to which I tried to focus on my hobbies and career which proved to be helpful. I found myself travelling again and freelancing for an online website for travel blogs and articles.  Meanwhile, I met this man as part of my survey for my latest work. He seemed to show interest in the work I do and also help me out to gather more details for my work. I don't easily trust people it has been my character since time. Somehow, this acquaintance was exceptional. We grew to know each other very well. Now, I could say my life wasn't that boring after all, worth the try.

Travelling cheered me up made me feel less doubtful but the skies weren't that clear even then, there was some shadow, a faint dark side to the ray of light. my new friend was more than happy to help. So, I decided to talk it out, my past. Intentionally, kept aside the 'day'.

Later point in my life, my new acquaintance played zero roles in my life meaning he left me for some unfortunate reasons which I myself couldn't figure out maybe it's that part of me who hides things that led him to never return back.

Years went by I get a courier one day from him, dated May 19 and inside had a note which said,

"Belongs to you"

It was a book that left behind the old trauma, the book titled

'How I killed my greatest friend'